Rindu.

Rindu.

Tapi tak nak menyusahkan :(

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It's like i am drowning but everyone else is breathing at the same place and time.


It's always worse than it seems.

Slice of life ;P

Okay. It seems like these past few days i will and i am only talking about dramas, animes or anything related because i have nothing better to do. The plot is really connected to one another, im a little freak to be honest.

Wait. I swear this gonna be a really random post, jumble up and down. I did not plan my writing and yep, i never actually.

I will list out my eye candies of this week.

1. Ao no Exorcist
- Yeap i talked about this before. It got my emotions went like woooooooo. Rather than all demon stuffs, i screamed at the Okumura's brotherhood. It is precious, i swear! And trust issue is such a pain, be it in reality or anime or drama.

And the dark side. When Yukio is posessed with Satan, the darks side kept screaming on how good the Rin is, able to do what he is unable to do and Yukio should kill his twin brother, Rin instead. Im not gonna lie i almost cry there. Lol. It hurts to see the relationship being tested under circumstances.

2. Golden Time
- A romance anime. I never plan to watch this, to be honest. I am the type to watch the very last 5 minutes of the last episode, and by that i will decide whether to watch the anime or not and with that, i decided not to watch this anime. Lol. But, right after i finish my AnE, i clicked on the Golden Time folder and did some reading on Wiki. Wow. The plot somehow attract me.

Its about Tada Banri who happened to had retrogade Amnesia after involved in accident.

Wait. Im not gonna make a synopsis of this anime anyway.

And it makes my emotions went on roller coaster ride again when Banri slowly regaining his memory before the accident and forget the present. I might say his life really begin after the accident, he enrol in law department, meeting his girlfriend, new friends and all and it is kind of hurt to see him forgot the best moment of his life.

3. Cheese in the trap
- This is seriously my current addiction! Haha. Im being skeptical over this drama before. I met this drama about 4 weeks ago and never thought i will give it a try since the title sounds silly tho and it is based on webtoon (korea production, well somehow we can call it manga in japan) so i thought it will be cliche as fk. Those shoujo thinggy somehow makes me cringe. Lol
But..! I was wrong. I decided to give this drama a try this afternoon.

Cliche kdrama will be like (well lets go for 16 episodes of kdrama)

A typical or atypical meeting of the lead - the relationship grow into friendship - about 10~11th episode they will start dating, everything seems sweet and conflict occur, the antagonist make their move - 14th-15th they start to resolve things, basically this is the episode of the couple break up. Haha. I swear, i skipped most of the scene in this episode because it is too much to handle and i am little annoyed with typical weak heroine and the non-affected-with-the-breakup like hero.

But. The CINT seems different tho.
The meet up is too cold and we dealing with the past of the character. They started dating on ep 4 and the character development is after that.

A typical drama shows tsundere (cold outside, warm inside) hero but this drama shows the opposite of tsundere (i swear the hero looks so warm outside, yetbhe is the real jerk, urghh i dont know who to believe anymore)



Well urghhhh look at that smile, precious! I cannot believe that he involved in too many tricky games. And i still cant decide whether to love this hero or not (this drama is on run, a real torture) because he seems suspicious and famous saying from people to his girlfiend is :

"I will show you the real of your great boyfriend..!"

I mean like, it is hurt to hear people saying that thing whenever a situation occur.
But im glad, the hero is all flawed. Im getting tired of over perfect hero T_T and the hero seems to pay all of his mistakes.

His dark side really creep me out. Im not gonna lie the first 3 episode i kept cursing at him. He's a real psycho.
This is seriously an enjoyable emotional roller coster ride for me but seriously another 6 episodes seems like forever :(

I love the message of this drama. Nobody is perfect and dont expect a bright people never had their dark side.
And for the heroin, trust issue is well played here. Despite all those things happening, you have to choose whether to trust the hero, accept their sins and flaw or leave him as he gonna pay for his sin anyway.

I dont know. I hope that this girl is not the typical girl who do the stupid things like being away from the hero in order to save him, in order to make him at ease or maybe they think that problem will settled if they get lost. I seriously dont understand this kind of thinking like wth the world is not revolve around you, you going away doesnt mean the problem is settled like that.

My forever fav heroines are Its okay its love and kill me heal me, they were so strong despite all those conflicts and not stupid. Lol

This CINT seems to be a wise type too. Im hoping that she wont be too stupid and irrational. Thats my only humble wish, because i neeeeed that.




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GOD! AKU BEBEL PANJANG GILA I SHOULD SLEEP ASFGGHKKL
I DONT EVEN BOTHER TO CHECK FOR TYPO OR GRAMMATIC ERROR OR WHAT ELSE BECAUSE I AM SLEEPY AND I DONT PLAN TO MAKE THIS BLOG READABLE X'D

Ao no Exorcist

I realized that i am such an emotional old hag crying over something nonsense nothing!

 

I might be late, lol this anime is kinda old but who cares. Im at episode 11th and this is my second time watching it.
Im not sure about others but seriously Ao no Exorcist burst me into tears, despite all those stupid moments, actually the plot is kinda well um dramatic? Pardon me for my disability finding the right word.
 
Seriously, it shows that no matter how demon you are, you want to be good. Long story short, Rin is actually a demon's son but he dont want to be a demon and he fight with his nature. But, i think the way he grow up matter, since he was raised in religious environment - in church by his guardian.
It can be apply in real life, no matter how bad your origin, as long as you were raised right, then it doesnt matter.

lol

Seriously Fara?

Seriously?
 

I am falling too deep that i almost making a literature for this anime right now. Hahaha.

To be honest, i got tons of work to do. Tapi nak bangun tidur pun malas apa tah lagi nak settlekan kerja.

 

Chaos;Head should be next. Veeeeeery old anime tho.

I might watch Kuroko no Basket again, but no Fara no. I had chronic withdrawal symptom of those series. Gila kau tidur pun termimpi-mimpi.

See. I told ya, i have no life xD

Dan aku lah belia yang tak menyumbang apa-apa kepada negara yang tengah kucar-lanar ni. Wahaha.

Social medias.

Holla! Im sorting out all my accounts today, yes since i got tons of gmail account that i forgot their existance and purpose of making ones.

Anyway, i changed my original account linked to Blogger because of privacy. Are you serious you are talking about privacy when using social medias? LOL. Yes yes. People will see me wherever i go on social medias such as Youtube using that account, i feel like im being watch over xD *yeah, im kind of active in commenting Youtube videos, wth ok wth*
And that's why for my previous post, you can see the 'posted by unknown' instead of my name since i adding new author and make myself admin - my new email, and deleted the previous one and i'm still trying to figure out how to link my new account to Bloggerdroid. Ahh. Too many works, im not gonna find the way soon because im too lazy as fk.

It's kind of creepy how people can find you with a name. Yeap, i mean using a name then all your social medias account listed in front of you. Blame me for the lack of creativity in creating various one lol but nope, im not gonna remember any of it. I bet.

Im thinking about deleting my Twitter account. Haha. Im on hiatus since forever, and i dont think i will make a comeback because i got that penyakit malas untuk membebel dan menaip setiap masa but that account mean so much to me, what the heck you being emo, seriously? since i made that account on my birthday 7-8 years ago.

I feel old meh.

Too many social medias is such a ruckus, i am not at the age of building new friendship with random social medias account holder since my current relationship with the reality one i mean dunia nyata is not that great either. Hahah. I need to work on that. I mean i HAVE to.

Again, i feel old.

I visit Youtube, SoundCloud and Facebook the most. But well, YT and SC does not really connect people right? LOL. I enjoy listening to random musics and pieces because too many awesome talented people especially on Soundcloud that i bawled hard thinking about my life with no music talent at all and my life with no life.

Blogger is a rare case. I rarely visit here, lack of content issue and im tired to say this thing but my life is too dull to be told. Hahah. I dont want Cinderella kind of story either, because it is too pretty that it irk the hell of me. Nevermind. I talk nonsense.

But i do update some crap stuffs sometimes and you have to bear with me dear readers, lol as if i had any. Sometime i use this blog to rant over emo and stress matter. Haha. Usually, few days later I will unpublish it. It just like temporary place to let out your emotion.
I hate Facebook anyway because i know people will read because it will appear on the Timeline but Blogger is another whole different case since i dont have any follower.  cant be thankful enough over this matter.

Instagram. I choose to not to be too active there RIP grammar because im a pauper. I mean i use insta to shop and i dont even have money to shop right now and forever. LOL
And to avoid insecurities. Hahah. People share candy moments of their life and im afraid that i might be too ungrateful of my life while i have nice one here.
I sound like a real sick jealous bitch here but hey come on, gila kau tak jeles kalau ada kereta, baju cantik-cantik, pergi jalan sana sini  bagai? HAHA. Jealousy cant be avoided but you can avoid the source of jealousy :D


Anddddd i hateee that angel-like caption in Insta while in real life you are devil. LOL. Again, im not judgemental asshole but i sound like one? Nevermind.


Wait.. I dont expect this post to be this long and nonsense. What even-